Before his affair, I LOVED the show. Thought it sexy and smart.
Now, it’s just a giant trigger to me.
I can relate to the first lady, his wife and feel her pain now.
I used to LOVE that show.
Before his affair, I LOVED the show. Thought it sexy and smart.
Now, it’s just a giant trigger to me.
I can relate to the first lady, his wife and feel her pain now.
I used to LOVE that show.
tempted by the fruit of another 
I never saw it, and now I don’t think I ever will. But I used to love “The Forsyte Saga”. I used to love that red dress that Irene wears when she dances with Bosinney. I used to think “I’ll have a dress like that on my 10th wedding anniversary”.
Now I am not about to defend Soames Forsyte. Almost no one deserves being cheated on, but a marital rapist who uses 19th century lack of female emancipation as a weapon has got to be at the extreme end. Still, it hurts. It hurts to see that he’s the image of the betrayed spouse. It hurts to see any kind of infidelity, even that. And then there’s the passing over of Jolyon Forsyte leaving his first wife for his governess. June’s mother dies and is never mentioned again. The women were just not that important. But it hurts too much to watch it now.
Reminds me of one of my old posts: http://ragesarcasmvitriol.com/2014/01/13/whatever-happened-to-escapism/
Now Paul will reach out and hold my hand every time this happens and whisper “I’m so sorry”. And I’ll reply “It’s ok, its everywhere.” And we both know it isn’t ok. But it is everywhere.
It is everywhere…and I change the channel when I can.
I can’t even read a fiction novel yet. I’m an avid reader…I am not ready for that yet.
Instead, I listen to an audiobook on my walks.
I haven’t seen the show, but I have heard all the critical acclaim. I am right there with you about so many shows/books/movies, though. At Christmastime, “Love Actually” was on and my mom had never seen it, so she, Peter, and I sat down and watched it together. Peter said, “Ohmigod, this is going to be so awkward” when it started. And I sort of agreed, but I said, “Too bad.” I was determined that he not ruin that movie for me. So we sat and we watched it together. Knowing what I know now, I hope the pain and uncomfortableness of the whole situation ate a hole through the lining of his stomach…but whatever.
Anyway, I think with time this sort of situation will get easier. I still can’t watch House Hunters International…which is sort of hilarious to type because there are few things on television that could be farther from infidelity. But still, it has an association with Peter. We always used to watch it together and gripe about the people looking for houses. And I still cannot to this day turn it on.
I’ve gotten to the point where I can focus on actual fiction, though. And when the affair business gets rolling in “From Here to Eternity,” I don’t even care if it’s on, whereas at Thanksgiving I probably would’ve had to take a Xanax and go lay flat in the bathtub for an hour.
But enough about me. Seriously, it will get better. I am not 100% at the better stage yet, but I can say with confidence that we really are headed in the right direction. If nothing else, WE CAN’T LET THEM ROB US OF GOOD TELEVISION 😉
In strength, xoxo,
Katie
Amen, sistah!
Love Actually is one of our favorite movies and Emma Thompson’s heart-wrenching performance has obviously more meaning to me now.
It’s weird, when I get in a bad headspace, I get out and go for a walk. But, reading hasn’t materialized yet. The first two+ months all I read was affair recovery books. Then I discovered blogs, so that takes care of my reading addiction! Yes, time will change things and hopefully for the better!
Hugs and raised mugs to you, Katie!
I used to love the Good Wife and Mistresses and so many other shows that were full of infidelity yet I either didn’t see it or I was actually rooting for the couple who were cheating a la Will and Alicia! That’s the trouble with Hollywood. All too often infidelity is glamorized and we all know that there’s no glamour in infidelity, well not for the spouse sitting at home while their cheating ass hole of a spouse is out fucking someone else! I can’t read any more, I can barely watch the TV and music is just so painful… thank god for all you bloggers out there or I might actually have to spend even more time sitting, thinking about my husband and the whore!!
Honestly, all TV just is the trigger for me.
Thank goodness I don’t have a gun 😉
LOL!
I live overseas and had been waiting with bated breath for Scandal to start here. It did. A couple weeks after DDay. Needless to say, I’m not watching it. Also the other day H asked if I wanted to see Wolf of Wall Street. I’ve heard a big part of the plot is his affair. I told H this and said I don’t think it’s a good idea to see it together. He can watch it on his own at some point if he cares to.
So ironic as I my first D Day was Dec 10, 2015 and of course I watch Scandal and Love Actually played over Christmas. I was surrounded by triggers. I did relate to Millie in Scandal…and I didn’t realise Emma Thompson’s character pain until then. I cannot even listen to certain songs…even new ones with lyrics too close to my own pain. Heavy sigh.